Dreaming a little dream of baby

Little Babykins,

I have been ready for you all my life - literally! While pouring over baby development charts and figures, I have learned I was born with all the genetic material I needed to help make half of your sweet little self.

Throughout the last few decades, God has been preparing me in other ways for
your arrival:

From what your grandma tells me, when I was a one year old, I would approach two and three year old children in strollers, pat him or her gently and happily say "Baby!" Even as a baby myself, my heart knew I wanted a baby!

As a three year old, I would play "house" with the other children in the neighborhood, and I was always the mom in our imaginary world. Maybe this was due to my perfect blend of bossy and nurturing characteristics. You should worry a little bit baby, since I do enjoy well behaved, disciplined children...you will just have to trust your parents' structure and rules will be for your own good.

When I was a four year old, and holding your Auntie Laura, in my over-joyed-baby-excitement I asked your grandma when she was having another baby, to which she replied "You are going to have to wait to have your own baby." I remember this conversation very well. Memory will be one of my super-mommy powers. I remember everything; almost literally everything since I have been four years old. You will not be able to get very much past me!

As a ten year old girl, I sat and rocked a family friend's baby to sleep while I watched the other kids run around the yard; and I was perfectly content. This isn't to say I didn't play for hours with kids my own age, but even then I found something wonderful about a sleepy baby snuggling against my shoulder.

When I was a 12 year old, awkward, gangly and dealing with my changing body, your grandma told me "The exciting part of all of this, is you can have a baby, of course many, many years from now." I had no idea you would indeed be so very far away from that moment, but everything happens for a reason.

As a 15 year old, my dear friend Michelle and I taught ourselves how to sew. Our first project? Baby clothes of course! While this may not be a conventional way for teenagers to spend their time, we loved the idea of future little ones wearing our handcrafted items. I still have a few of those clothes which I will lovingly put on your little body.

Since this time, I have learned more about myself, others and life in general. I met your daddy, and he too had a dream of one day having a baby, and as you will learn later in life, not many men admit they want children - one of the many reasons your daddy was a "keeper." We have talked about you conceptually many times throughout the years, and we are so excited you will be joining our family. We have banked years and years of love for you already, and I know this will multiply exponentially when you arrive.